Friday, October 11
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reminisiced at 20:33
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suddenly remembered or tot of my exam pcs.
suddenly feel real worried now.
what if my waiting is out of point?
or mr wong or any other english teacher dun like how i wrote it?
the same goes for my chinese.
didn't even attempt any plotty kinda of essay ...
really damn freaked. suddenly. and my tutor wun be able to come down for emaths tuition.
he says its ok to call over the phone. but just really freaked out. what if its all diagrams that i dunno how to do?
amaths was freak. tot i cld secure an A1. but now i am crossing my fingers.
the relative papers were ok.
but.... gosh. i duno. seriously dunno what to say.
not like anything i say now will change any thing i may not want to see.
just really hope the results are pretty desirable. reasonable .
i haven been the most consistent student... but i think i'd really give in my best.
which applies for the ALL the papers i have taken.
geography...well damn sure wun do well...coz i din even finish it.
like most of the class...or rather those in my type of plight chose selective studying...
and all of them studied > .i jus merely glanced through and made a terrible mistake on
focusing on formations when NONE of the questions involved formations?
and i actually omited natural resources subconsciously?
and true enough it came out for structured essay. 25 % ?!
just hope what i wrote from the listening to lessons and marking of assignments
that geog paper was the one with the heaviest burden. now that its over. i m naturally feeling real relief.
which explains why im still bloggin at this hr instead of muggin.
haix. just hope i'll be able to get my emaths doubts confirmed
and once again. i din fufill my 2002's same-old-new-yr-resolution to be a really studious stdn.
haix. guess i really have to submit myself into books aft the exams or somethin?
dun want to make any grave mistakes of slacking anymore. O levels' chinese approaching soon.
i want an A1. so ... i am hoping to get it. somehow. hopefully. and...i really WANT to improve. and be some kinda A stdn? feeeling damn inferior admist my peers.really inferior. sometimes...jus really feel like breaking down. is it jus my attidude or is it i am just too dumb? cun get into bio and now i am not even doing well...sucks. chem was to be my ace subject. and now look. really duno. what if i dun even qualify for a promotion? or even to jc/poly nex yr?
but the exam papers.... took all [except the cL +eL paper + today's geog] with confidence. damn scared. i duno.
i dun want to be retained. jiam says i wun. all higher cl girls wun. and i dun want my marks to be just pass. i dun wan another 30 odd L1R5.
arrx. just hope tomorrow i'll be able to study. not repeat the mistake like yesterday. cun believe i actually slept the day b4 geog bcox my room/hse was damn humid lorx.
my mum's bday tml. hope i wun piss her off. she's currently unhappy with me staying up late...
they dun even get it. they'll only get pissed when i dun sleep. and rant at me. shrugs. dunno.
+ + + + + reminisiced at 09:19
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WAS
lucky you. you were what every child should be.
carefree. optimistic. and happy.
what kind of child were you?
(brought you by april)
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+ + + + + reminisiced at 04:39
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am gonna sign gbks aft exams. have to go. *sighs*.
you're girl, interrupted. you're fun and friendly, and just a little bit crazy.
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slinkstercool community.
+ + + + + reminisiced at 04:38
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okies. wows. have 3 more paper to go.
ss. emaths. chinese.
today made me feel so much like exam's over.
realised and thought about a number of stuffs this week.
haix* admist the irritating fact of must study.
and somehow...i now know nothing but study.
normal life's been wrenched.
haix. now the only 'relaxed' ppl around the school
are the sec 4s. somehow they dun seem nervous.
hahs. just that i know*** some ppl been pon-ing.
oh bahs. wonder how it will be one yr down the road mans.
beside the fact that my geog is really gonna suck.
yikes. jus like. i duno. its funny how everyone treats life.
or come to think of it. there are 5 billion odd ppl around the world.
and everyone's life's practically about the same.
u work for living. or u study to live. some people never get to do so..
fate decides them. not they decide for fate
and yet people who are in ctrl don't cherish it.
its funny. how people differ. how people change. how....
there are just about god-knows-how-long-or-how-much worth of DNA codes in our chromosomes.
and there's like just about 1.0 X 10 14 cells in there.
and every cell has this little chromosome made from some amino acids?
like...we've got so much of different DNA codes.
constantly changing. mutation. adaption. influence and all.
but i really wonder how the A T C G thing works.
like how exactly. isn't it so thought provoking.
.....some ppl are like that and some are just that.....
mentalities. mindsets. or is it just down to the genetic thingy?
yikes, am reallly not getting down to any point.just ranting about the bits of thoughts leftover in here...this damaged brain of mine....
hmmx. maybe what i said above is not true *of the dna thingy...*...coz i dun take bio *sniffs*
watched erin brockovich ...
the one where julia roberts got an emmy.
gosh. at first the movie started really qt on a low tone...
was then getting a lil bored ...but the plot got > interesting.
julia acts as this sassy lad who seems to have a totally ruined life...this movie's really's down to this..
"she got a small town to its feet, and a huge company to its knees"
this sassy lass has got 3 kids. divorced twice. outta job...till she meets up with a car accident
and her lawyer cun get her the credit she had assumed.
tt sassy cleavage-baring woman uses the fuck word every 5 minutes?
yepx. but....it was a great show. watching how witty she was ..
the story of erin brockovich... its true.
this woman who seemed like her life was gonna go down the drain.
helped fight justice for 634 people of a small rural town
where lots of people die. as though there was widespread epidemic
no one cares. people who knew just mourn and keep their hands off it
documentations. cancer. tumours.chromium-3 being masked as chromium-6
only one lass cares. heart + soul. she gives it in.
she 's got the grit. she's got the wits. she's got it.
negligence tended to occur. her new-man in life leaves her
her 2nd most sensible kid starts having attitude prob.
now that she's got a law case that's truly remarkable.
another law firm sets their nasty eyes on it.
she struggles. she fights. she knows that her health's declined.
nevertheless ...she did the impossible.
she's rather remarkable. 634 signatures. one word. determination.
ed. that lad who got her in this clad....
collaborated with her....this water contamination issue ... this irresponsible MNC...
brought down to her knees.
oh wells.its just so... *thought-seeming. so inspirational. and...did i mention"?
the company got sued in the end for $333 million US bucks. PG& E.
hahas.
just because i love chem? *pengs*
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Wednesday, October 9
bleahx. am supposed to reach home... but ... kaox.
somehow my family 'ganged' up on me.
no one at home..den don't have the key...
bahs. mum's outta reach. so stuck at my
uncle's workplace. darn. hope i can study... but seems
like not possible..... the auntie here seems so interested in engaging conversations.
sighs. and chemistry. was so scary.
like. i thought the paper was damn freaky.
and ....
last year's paper was damn EASY...
and....this year's... mrs hoo v bad ehs.
haix. darn. hope somehow... i'll be able to study....
okie. maybe i shld try giving some obvious hints i am
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+ + + + + reminisiced at 20:18
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Sunday, October 6
i chose waiting . wells. hope i din go out of point.
and my amaths A1 is gone.
that headache just had to come in the midst of it. oh wells. *sniff*
2 down + 9 more to go!
+ + + + + reminisiced at 22:03
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